Acrylic on canvas, 30 cm x 30 cm
The path of the artist – the soul’s calling – the creative life
It is the only path to bring true fulfillment and joy, it is in human’s nature to be creative, and in its essence
Surrendered to the flow of the universe, transforming the past, creating the future. All while being alive, here and now.
To be an artist is to be an alchemist, it is not about escaping the low energies of this planet,
it is about grabbing them and putting them on the palette to mix it into the paint and put it onto the canvas
turning them into a work of beauty. Or to put them into any art form – and there are infinite ways of doing so –
transmute them and lift the spirit on this Earth that is so desperately calling out
for artists to do their work – for every soul to follow its calling.
HOME IN SOLITUDE
Acrylic on canvas, 60 x 30 cm
It was summer and I was alone in the mountains close to where I grew up. I craved solitude, peace and ease, I craved silence so badly. I wanted it but it was so frightening at the same time. The past was always with me and it could get a grip on me just at any time, I would lose all control and I would be in pieces, I would die inside just once again. I was in this place I loved, a place that was so safe, surrounded by beautiful nature, but inside myself I was confronted by a raging war. Painting was so often what gave me a sense of calm. The vibrant colours reminded me, if I keep on transforming the pain I will become vibrant, I will become alive. My life will be full of vibrancy.
Acrylic on canvas, 59 x 42 cm
So often I feel a deep sense of care for all beings on this planet and beyond
Including human beings.
I feel it in my heart and soul.
I feel the tragedy, I see the beauty too. I see what our eyes cannot see.
I see what humanity has lost, how lost humans have become. I cannot save them, and neither do they wish to save themselves.
I see what they have forgotten, I see what has been destroyed, what has got the better of them, and I see what could be restored.
I see the pieces, scattered all over the place, while I see the full picture in its divine beauty.
I feel so alone and yet so connected, I am so alone and yet I am not.
I feel so lost in a world which has become lost,
and yet I am never lost
I am always carried.
Acrylic on canvas, 15 x 15 cm
Green is the spiritual colour of the heart (chakra) and the most predominant colour in nature. It is Nature that teaches us to connect with the Heart and feel again, when the unnatural ‘civilised’ world has left us numb and disconnected. Those moments when you feel lost and alone and there is nowhere else to turn to, when no one understands you anymore. • turn to Nature and open your heart.
This world leaves us heartbroken, so often in pieces. This physical human world, it may limit and imprison us. But then, there is a force, so big way beyond this world, and it puts us back together piece by piece and liberates us. • when we open up and invite it in • when we trust in its goodness • when we have faith in its power • when we allow it to take over. We feel it in the waves of the sea, in every little grass and big tree, this powerful force that is all around in nature, and we are reminded, it is within us too.
Acrylic on canvas, 15 x 15
The language of the soul exists beyond words. It can only be spoken by feeling it through the heart.
It can only be understood by those who are not afraid to feel, and not afraid to see, the beauty and the tragedy.
And most importantly, the true reality.
Acrylic on canvas, A5
Passion is born out of the storm, the urge for liberation out of captivity.
Everlasting joy is born out of deep sadness, purpose is born out of tragedy.
Strength is born out of destruction, creativity is born out of everything.
Acrylic on canvas, 30 x 30 cm
The time has come to reconnect.
To cleanse and detoxify.
Burn everything, leave it in the past.
Anything that is heavy, weighing down the soul,
it all needs to go, taken off you.
Create space for all that is good
In your body, soul and mind.
Surrender and receive it,
the good, healing, creative energy
Take it all in, it is all that you need.
Acrylic on canvas, 40 x 40 cm
How did we become so
Disconnected. Scattered, fragmented, all over the place. Lost in amnesia. Looking for something, but what is it. That slight feeling of remembering briefly at times in silent moments. Distraction. Lost it again so quickly.
And then there comes the moment
When all you ever had is gone within the blink of an eye.
Shattered and destroyed. The person your mind created, and all you held onto so tightly,
dreams and hopes and all you ever wanted.
coldly staring you in the eye.
No more illusions, no more false comforts, no more self deception.
But you are never alone, you see.
Now is the time to become alive, and to truly break free.
INNER GALACTIC EPISODES
Acrylic on canvas, 120 x 60 cm
When wounds are opened and one stares into the depths of it. And it feels like standing on the edge of a cliff, a see of blood boiling and raging beneath. Look into the abyss, look at all you have lost. Look at the furious crying children drowning in blood, in the sea of the unheard and the unseen. Will you save them, will you jump and tear back out one at a time. Listen to them calmly, allow their pain to be felt in your heart until its soothed, one by one. Or will you let them drown and will you let them scream, will you let their fury dig deeper into the wound until there is nothing more left of you, will you?
Acrylic on canvas, A1
Destructive and traumatic events and phases in life can lead one down a path of self destruction. It makes one vulnerable to attracting more evil into ones life which causes havoc, rips one apart even further to the point of no return. Such events and phases can also be the best opportunity one can get to pick up all of the pieces and put them back together – glue them together with gold into the whole big picture – the divine work of art creation has intended for one to be.
In this painting a destroyed kingdom is being infused with the divine life force energy to be brought back to life.
Acrylic on canvas, 59 x 42 cm
The fire burning in her soul
Ready to burn anything that seeks to destroy her
What broke her once can break her no more
Marisia, Queen of the Underworld
Acrylic on canvas, 18 x 24 cm
When you surrender to the flow of the universe, you find yourself continuously spiralling upwards. Going through cycles of growth and healing, learning and unlearning, creation and destruction, letting go of the old and replacing it with the new, and repeat again. A constant unfolding and moving forward, even when it feels as if one is moving backwards. The force of the universe, the highest form of intelligence in existence, knows exactly what it is doing.
Acrylic on canvas, 30 x 25 cm
She has seen the darkest of darkness
Her soul was fragmented by the very forces
The many battles she had to fight
Turned her destructive
Towards those who seek to destroy
Marisia, Protector of Nature, of innocent beings
Guard of the Shadows
In the dark alleys of the Kingdom
Marisia, she fights for Justice
Those who seek to destroy
They shall burn in her fire
The fire that burns in her broken soul
In the depths of the dark forest
At peace and alone
INTO THE SEA
Acrylic on canvas, 30 x 30 cm
The emotional world is a vast ocean, an infinite sea. Its waters reach depths, places that can no longer be described or explained by words. They tell a story much deeper than that, stories told beyond the realm language. What would life be without exploring such depths, without the treasures that are to be found in them? If one searches for meaning, if one seeks to find ones soul, one has to dive deep. One needs to let go, surrender to the flow of the waves and allow oneself to be carried, to be taken to where one needs to be. The waves, at times so stormy and raging, at times so peaceful and calm, and at times one gets dragged down so deeply into the unspeakable realm. And every time one will come back onto the surface, wiser and richer each time.
Oil on canvas, 40.5 x 30 cm
She said to me, when you open up and unfold your beauty, when you share it with the world for everyone to be admired, make sure you also grow thorns. There will be those who will try and get too close, and if they don’t respect you, they deserve to get hurt.
Don’t be afraid of anyone, don’t hide your beauty from the world, show it proudly and allow it to be admired. But choose wisely who you let close.
Acrylic on canvas, 59 x 42 cm
The shackles of the human condition, they were placed upon us all. This civilisation – the society, culture and family we grew up in, they all ingrained their conditioned beliefs, mindsets and attitudes deeply into our minds. One is told what to think, one is told what to feel. No matter how false, how unnatural, how out of alignment with ones true state, one still needs to follow certain rules in order to be accepted, one needs to hide behind a facade, an identity, an illusion – even in this day and age where we are supposed to be living in an advanced civilisation. Humanity has become advanced in many ways yet psychologically and emotionally it is lagging behind, and this has led it onto a self-destructive path.
Liberate your soul, break through those layers of conditioning and undo them. Keep your will strong, commit to freedom, fall in deep love with truth, listening to the soul screaming to be liberated, listen to its calling, break free from those social ties and run wild out into the mystery that human life truly is, unregulated, extraordinary and freely flowing like a river, and yet being contained in itself.
Acrylic on canvas, 59 x 42 cm
The Violet Flame is a spiritual symbol and tool for alchemy. It is being used to transform the low vibrational energies of the human world into the high vibrational Divine Energy.
ON THE EDGE
Acrylic on canvas, 25 x 30 cm
What I asked for was peace, but here I’m running,
again, through the forest.
Running from something, just so I don’t have to stare into this dreadful silence,
away from what is chasing me.
Freedom, have I lost faith in it again. Am I lying on the ground,
screaming to be released, to leave this body and this experience
or to have this taken out, what never belonged to me
Will I remain here forever, until it eats me up inside
I’m searching for the exit, but where is the exit and does it even exist
Question after question.
What does it take, what is it again, that I am looking for
I know, it’s there, but I lost it all again.
I lost it and I will find it, just one more time,
again and again.
Моя самая сладкая боль
Acrylic on canvas, 30 x 20 inch
Overflowing with pain I immersed myself once again into the creative process. Shedding layer after layer, finally finding that release. Pain, it can be so sweet, and it is better than numbness, better than the emptiness of feeling nothing at all. Pain, it can be an addiction, when it is the only thing one is able to feel, when it is the only thing to make one feel alive. Pain, it does not belong to you, and yet you persistently take it on, as if it was yours to carry, your burden to take upon your shoulders. Pain, it can all be taken, if only you feel it, and then you let it go.
INFINITÉ DE DESTINS
Acrylic on canvas, 21 x 14.7 cm
Some experiences, situations, places and people push one into the darkness, they will lead one into the places in ones inner world that one have avoided, ignored or even denied so far. It is then up to oneself to face those places, to shine the light of consciousness upon them, to bring them to ones awareness. This may be painful and frightening, yet it is the path to liberating the soul. It’s in those darkest of places within where one finds the most beautiful treasures.
Oil on canvas, 1 x 1 m
The sea is a big inspiration, healer and teacher of Nature. It gives a sense of freedom, openness and strength. The healing powers of the waves can wash away the pain and transform it. They have this enormous strength that one can absorb if one is tuned in. They teach us, one can be carried by the same power that carries the waves from one shore to the next, all across the oceans. Surrender to that power, let the waves take you away to where you belong.
ABOUT THIS SERIES
I created the first painting of the EMERGENCE series in summer of 2017 and finalised the last painting in late Spring of 2018. The way they are presented are not in chronological order – they are ordered in a way that personally feels right.
Just after starting on the first two paintings I moved to Plymouth in the UK, and as it happens with relocations and new beginnings in Life, they tend to bring new inspiration and creativity which greatly fuels new creative projects.
Upon starting, I was not sure how it would turn out or what I was even going to do exactly. All I knew was that I needed to transform the past – the pain, the trauma, the intense emotions that I found so unbearable at times. I needed to turn it into something beautiful, for myself and anyone viewing it.
Creating these paintings turned out to be highly therapeutic and they assisted me in connecting with something far bigger than all the pain and suffering I was going through. It was inner alchemy at its finest.
I look at these paintings now proudly, as I have reached a place of peace within myself. As I have found my health and sanity again and a sense of being the creator – not only of transformational paintings – but of my own reality. Creativity goes far beyond creating works of art – it is a mindset and a way of life. It is deeply embedded into our human nature.
I wish for the viewer to connect with these paintings and the transformational energies they hold. These energies have not only helped me – they are there to help anyone who opens up to them.